Somewhere between afraid of commitment and okay with being alone. Find myself getting into something like relationships. Monogamous situationships with blurred lines. Solely with women because it’s easier to set emotions aside. Vowing to avoid emotional ties, but yet emotions rise. How could they not the way we look into each other’s eye, make love with no words, just vibes. Going crazy between each other’s thighs. The audacity of me to be upset about what you’re doing, when I refuse to love you back. The audacity of me. The audacity of me to sleep with someone else but not want you to be touched by anyone but me. Fuck boy tendencies picked up dating the wrong men. This is my apology. Dont be traumatized to love someone the way you loved me, and find yourself somewhere between afraid of commitment and okay with being alone… just like me.